fuck
I'm writing a thing for work (ya it's a holiday, i'm annoyed to be working now). But i have written three drafts of this thing, and they've hated them all. i hate this. I HATE HATE HATE this. because all i can think about is that i suck as a writer. now this is not an opportunity for people to post back and say nice things about my writing.(you can't anyway) it's not a cry for help. its just a blog about the fact that it seems taht no matter how good I or my friends think i am at this shit, i'm actually not very good. I can write MY stuff, but can't ever seem to write for clients in a way that satisfies them. Since i got this job every single thing i've written has been extensively and completely re-done over and over and over again. it's depressing. while i was self-employed it was more or less the same. and it's tiring. and depressing. because as I said to steve today on msn it's a pain in the ass when you find out that the only thing you're good at, is something you're not very good at. so here's my prediction: i'll be unemployed by christmas.
